| Friendship meme! |
[12 Apr 2006|07:06pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 busy |
] |
Before any more of you post this, I'm going to put it up, and try to respond to it when I can. I feel back-logged on entries!
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say
about you?
|
|
| *screened for Ryuuji, Seto and Anzu only* |
[23 Mar 2006|07:57pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 guilty |
] |
( private )
Hey, Ryuuji--I'm sorry. Seto explained things to me better, and I know I shouldn't have jumped in, now. And Seto...sorry.
But I already told you that. Either way, I'll be leaving you two alone now. Because I know now...even if you reject him, he won't be coming my way.
|
|
| Hey guys! |
[15 Mar 2006|11:42pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 optimistic |
] |
Remember the Space Sheep series? Yeah...the one we almost two years ago?
Well, guess what?
They have a spin off movie called 'Sheep Mafia.' Apparently, while the others are dealing with Lord Goat in Space, there's a group of renegade sheep trying to take over the Earth, using...guess what? Big time corporations. Think Seto's planning anything and not telling us? Then this group of crazies somehow found out and decided to expose him via cinematic intelligence.
Either way, it should be out in Domino this summer, so guess what I'm thinking?
|
|
| Men!! |
[10 Mar 2006|09:35pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 aggravated |
] |
You know what....
On second thought, I'm over Seto. 100%. Promise. Complete withdrawal, over and done with.
Ryuuji, enjoy the damn bastard.
Shame I'm not there to give him the kick in the ass he deserves. Or at least punch him. I suppose a kick there would be a bit too cruel--shove the stick up further and all.
Yeah. Ryuuji? He's ALL yours.
I can't believe you hung up on me, you stupid jerk! I was trying to apologize and figure out what the heck you meant in my journal. I'm trying to be nice to you and you HANG UP ON ME.
|
|
| To Seto |
[09 Mar 2006|11:55pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
contrite |
] |
Hey Seto.... After talking some with Mokuba, and having a lot of time to cool down about things....
I'm sorry.
|
|
| Dead tired |
[07 Mar 2006|07:00pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 tired |
] |
I should tell Seto off for making Noa cry. I mean...what gives? Sure the kid did some horrible things in the past to us, but that's past. You're so fond of putting the past in the past--why can't you do it with him?
Still, I'm far too tired to bother right now.
Life has been nothing but practice and work. Practice and work.
I knew life as a dancer was going to be rough, though, but I wish I had prepared myself for all of the times I would want to go out and couldn't, or just didn't have the energy left in me to. There is so much I could be doing right now....
I think I'm going to stretch a bit, though, then just collapse in bed, after just finishing that long research paper. No more, please. I came here to dance, not write essays.
Anyhow, night, guys.
|
|
| Some people |
[25 Feb 2006|07:02pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
annoyed |
] |
You know, some people could stand to learn a little diplomacy and consideration.
|
|
| To Kaiba Seto, the world's biggest jerk |
[04 Feb 2006|09:05pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
aggravated |
] |
Or at least...the tallest.
The LEAST you could have done was tell me you were interested in someone else, but finding out from a journal layout that it seems you and Ryuuji are an item was JUST PLAIN EVIL OF YOU.
I asked you a straight forward question, and you played games with me instead of just answering the question. That was intolerably cruel of you.
You could have just said you had interests elsewhere. I would have understood that. I would have appreciated the truth. It might have hurt some, but in the long run, it would have been better for me--as opposed to the slap in the face Ryuuji's layout produced.
You're a completly inconsiderate, selfish, arrogant BRAT!
|
|
| Right now, I really hate men. |
[16 Jan 2006|04:44pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
jealous |
] |
Right now...I wish I was male. Seriously.
I can't even sleep thanks to this.
Normally, it's not painful, but this month decided, "Hey, let's make Anzu wake up and be unable to sleep as she tosses and turns trying to get comfortable." Well, it's succeeded. I did take a warm bath, though, so hopefully that helps.
And that aside, the craving for vanilla ice cream is going to drive me mad.
After all, you think being around Seto would make you crave vanilla ice cream, right? But it doesn't.
It's when you're eating the ice cream, or walking by a bakery and smelling vanilla cake that you start craving him.
*sigh* I think I need sleep.
|
|
| Vacation ahoy! |
[08 Jan 2006|11:26am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
accomplished |
] |
You know...this song reminds me of Seto. Err...sort of. Perhaps a bit more Devlin/Ryuuji, since it's so happy, and talks about dice. Either way, it reminds me of home.
Speaking of home, I thought I would tell everyone - since I just talked to my boss about this - I'm going back to Japan for a couple of months during the summer. I could have taken summer classes, but I miss everyone so much. I'd rather space myself out, anyway. I'll go visit, and my boss doesn't mind if I take off for a bit.
So that's all settled! Now, I'm going to head off to bed. Tomorrow I have a whole day planned to use up some more of those gift certificates Seto and Yûgi sent me.
Shizuka-chan, when would be a good time to call you? Mai--same for you? I've not talked to anyone in ages. Let me know--let's get together, in the least over the phone. And when I get back, we need to plan a day for all of us--let's pull Isis-san and Miho in too. Ack! It's been even longer since I spoke with Miho.
Oh yes...we have to go shopping, go to a day spa and get special treatment, then head out to the hot springs for a couple of days. Then we'll paint our nails, play some volley ball and go to a club after it all. I know a couple of clubs that will except Shizuka in - they just stamp your hands to show you're underage for drinking. I don't drink anyway. I doubt Miho does either. I'm not sure about Miho...but I know for certain Mai drinks. Heh.
Either way, come on! Let's make a date. And start posting more, guys. How am I supposed to get a hold of Isis-san around here? I never got her number, but Yûgi told me she was still in Japan. I guess I'll have to ask him to ask if it's okay he gives me her number. I desperately want to talk to her after what happened to Malik. Just...ouch. I think a part of me would die if Mokuba or Yûgi died.... And I am sad Malik's gone. Gah!! Just imagine how Ryuuji's taking this. No wonder he's acting so happy.... He's trying so hard, poor guy.
Anyway, just added Noa to my friends list, and I'm heading off for the night. Night, guys!
|
|
| No...I'm not an alien. Promise. |
[04 Jan 2006|11:52pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
hopeful |
] |
Thanks to Seto, I remember this thing exists now. I think...for the new year, I'll aim to update a bit more. I can always try, after all. I can't make any promises, considering my school schedule, with a job piled on top of that, but hey, I'm independent now, and making my way in the world. That's more than enough in exchange for a little sacrifice of my time.
Besides, I never was one to use this thing much. I always had my friends around me, so I could just go over, or talk with them on the phone. Things are different now.... I didn't realize just how different until the other day when I was thinking about everyone, and I was forced to recognize the fact I hadn't heard from any of my friends in Japan for a while. That's a bit of a somber thought.
And I can't fully blame them, because I'm the one that hasn't made much of an effort. Between Christmas parties and New Year's Eve parties...I didn't find much time after finals to sit down and just call people up. I did send off New Year's cards, though. Those have always been important to me, and I can't see that changing anytime soon.
And...I did tell Seto and Yûgi not to call me during December--not until I called them.
Oops. It's January, and I have yet to call either. Sorry, guys.
At least Yûgi informed me about Jounouchi and Honda. Gah! Where do I start?
Thankfully, Jounouchi's prison life was short-lived, and he was innocent of the charges. But Honda...? Can we say complete and total pervert? Jerk?
You get the point.
I don't care if you were drunk--that's no excuse for what you did. And you shouldn't have been drinking so much that you get to that point in the first place. Ever. It's just plain sick. Don't let me run into you for a good while.
Then there's school, which, for me, mostly consists of the Fine Arts. It's not a bad set up, really. I'll detail more of that later. For now...I only have one thing on my mind: Seto, would now be a good time to call you? It's been forever since we talked.
|
|
| Inactive Journal Takeover |
[04 Jan 2006|12:17am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
bored |
] |
Due to inactivity, this journal has been given to Anzu's couch, which has been taken over by an alien. I sleep in the cushions.
|
|
|
[29 Mar 2005|06:43pm] |
Hey you guys!
Sorry it's been awhile since I've updated. I'd say I've been busy, but that'd kind of be a copout. I mean, you guys seem to be doing it just fine.
Madame's been extra hard on me lately to get me in top shape for Juliard. And guess what? My leg really hasn't been bothering me at all! Yay! ^^ There's some other things I have to do to get ready for next school year, (Quiz me on my English, I dare you) but so far, so good.
Sorry about last night Yûgi. The phonecall? Sorry it was short. I'm really sorry.
Well, it's about time for me to go to dance practice. See you in a couple hours, Seto.
|
|
| [Private] |
[29 Mar 2005|06:20pm] |
How do I feel about this?
.
Ug, how come I can't even say anything in a private entry?
I feel guilty.
Why? Because of the lessons? Because Yûgi knows about them now, even sounds happy about them. And it's not because I'm getting money, because I'm not now.
... I know why, but it's almost like if I can find another reason for this guilt, it'll make it all better. But I can't. And if I ever want things to get better, then I have to admit it to myself.
I am a traitor.
Because?
Because I have feelings for him. Someone who's not my boyfriend.
Because he makes me feel--
Because he makes me feel...
I can't do this.
Well, now what?
|
|
| Grasping at straws |
[26 Jan 2005|08:53pm] |
I am so out of the loop, you guys. It's all running and dancing and school-and-homeworkandworkandworkandworkandworkand (ACK!)--- well, you get the picture.
Sigh.
And there's an envalope waiting on my desktop for me to open, but I'm too much a nervous wreck to so much as touch it. (When I clear the crumbs off the table, I dust around it.)I could open it now, but it doesn't feel right. Maybe later. Maybe sooner than later?
Missed you at school today, Yugi... I haven't checked your journal yet to see if you're sick or something (I've got hot chocolate that I can bring over if you are!). But my phone's on if you feel like giving me a call!
Honda, I heard what you said today in math. You'd don't want to know how many different ways I'll make you regret it if you do.
|
|
| Always busy! |
[24 Dec 2004|05:51pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 drained |
] |
So, what have I been doing lately? Oh, let's see...
1. Catching up with schoolwork.
* It takes hard work to catch up after being gone during final preperation... Let's just say that flashcards have become my friends...
2. Christmas cards
* I know, I know, we generally don't celebrate Christmas around here, but my family likes to send out cards, just sort of as a synopsis of how our years went. It sounds like a nice idea, but I absolutely hate tracking down everyone's new addresses, coming up with what I'm going to say (because "My best friends (and Kaiba) made sure the world didn't explode." isn't exactly believable.)
3. Getting back into dancing-shape
* In between school work and cards, I've been doing more barre work and things to help my leg get strong again, treadmills, stairstep machines, what have you. I've been sitting in on my usual dance practices, and I'll actually be joining them again next week. I know that my hard work hasn't been in vain. I'll catch right back up with them.
4. Thinking about Yuugi
* ^^
Oh man, gotta go! More later!
|
|
| Woops, I have a LiveJournal, don't I? |
[17 Aug 2004|09:45pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 contemplative |
] |
I'm sorry, I've kind of been neglecting my journal lately... well, I went to the doctor this week, so I'm hoping that gives me a bit of an excuse as to why I haven't been journaling up a storm. Anyway, you know how I said that I was getting my cast off sometime this week? Um... yeah, that was just wishful thinking, I guess. Evidently I mistook something the doctor said earlier, or he misspoke, or something. I was really looking forward to having my cast off before my birthday, but that's not happening.
Oh, but before I forget to mention it, my birthday's tomorrow! I accept cash, check, and most major credit cards... Aww, you guys know I'm joking. I just want to see you guys tomorrow... if you're free. If not, um, I can see you later this week, right?
I went to see my dance studio's recital yesterday. It was beautiful... Miho did a great job on my solo... okay, so I'll admit, I nitpicked like mad when I watched her, but honestly, with such short notice, she did great. I brought her a bouquet of lavenders , and surprisingly enough, they are her favorite. Honda gave me the right information... including the flowershop to buy them from, and the price for the flowers... (Tell me, did she like the flowers when you gave her the same bouquet? Or did you just look it up and think about giving them to her?)
I--- just, everyone needs to at least call each other soon, please? Let that be my birthday present, please, just let us be closer again. Please. I know I haven't been there for everyone as much as I've wanted to be, and I know I've messed up, and I know that we're all kind of afraid of letting each other down, but we need each other now.
|
|
|
[13 Aug 2004|10:58pm] |
I desided to try the song thing that Otogi did. It was really cool, I thought! So, um, I hope no one's mad at what I put down here. I started this forever and a day ago, but it's taken so long to come up with songs for everyone. Mokuba, Isis-san, sorry, but I couldn't find songs for you... more about that down below!
"Pick a song for each person on your friend's list. It can represent what you think of that person, what your relationship is like with them, what you think that they'd be likely to sing/say and can even just be pure music with no lyrics that you find suitable for them. Put the lyrics behind lj cuts, but place an extract of the lyrics under the song titles as well as an explanation of why you chose that song. You can pick more than one song of course, and don't forget to pick one for yourself!"
For Otogi, "Goodbye, Goodnight" by Jars of Clay. The song is really short, so I'll just put it all here.
A flower for your vanity, a penny for your thoughts
About the world’s insanity and how we’ve gotten lost.
Strike up the band to play a song as we go waltzing by,
And fake a smile as we all say goodbye.
Goodbye, oh goodbye
Say a prayer for recognition, kiss the ones you love.
Gather up the ammunition, sigh for all the lost.
Strike up the band to play a song as we go waltzing by,
And fake a smile as we all say goodbye.
Goodbye, oh goodbye
Raise a glass for ignorance, drink a toast to fear.
The beginning of the end has come that’s why we all are here.
Strike up the band to play a song and try hard not to cry,
And fake a smile as we all say goodbye.
Goodbye...
The song's so meloncholy; about trying to seem happy in the midst of hopelessness, but still feeling the weight of it. ::hugs Otogi::
For Yugi, I picked "Collide", also by Jars of Clay.
Open up your box of sunshine
And smile as confetti comes raining down on you.
You feel a lot like the good guy, but do you know why
Everything’s so blue?
Well, love is fire and the coals are barely burning.
Cold fills the emptiness that fills this empty place.
I taught you the walk but then you ran away from me,
And that’s not how it’s supposed to be.
I I collide, with love as an elusive state of mind
I know there’s something else it’s supposed to be
I, I collide with love as an elusive state of mind
Something’s killing me!
Tearful confessions have watered down and broken down
The chance for unrequited love to finally reach it’s wall.
You’re waiting for the axe to fall
Can’t you see it lying on the ground?
You could be the best one at cleaning up this mess
Be the best one, be the best one, be the best one.
It was really hard to find a song for you, but this was the best one I could think of. First of all, becase you are "the good guy" in the first verse. ;) Because you're always willing to forget the past, forgive, and make friends, like the third part says. And because you're wonderful at cleaning up our messes.
I kind of got on a Jars of Clay kick for a while, as you can tell! :) For Malik, I thought "Can't Erase It" fit... I'm sorry, I don't know you as well as everyone else does, so please don't be mad if this isn't at all like you!
Follow the crowd and love everybody now,
’cause love is the best thing for you now.
But you changed your mind, you let everybody down,
But down is the best place for you;
It’s easier that way, you know it’s
So wrong, can’t embrace it,
Wish sometimes for any other you.
But you can’t erase it, and you won’t escape it.
Don’t waste your time,
Your words only confine you
To all of the things you’ve buried now.
Don’t ask them why
Their wisdom will leave you blind,
But blind is the best thing for you.
It’s easier I know, you know it’s
So wrong, can’t embrace it,
Wish sometimes for any other you.
But you can’t erase it, and you won’t escape it.
How long will you face it
Till the weight comes crashing down on you?
’cause you can’t erase it, and you won’t escape it .
For Ryou, I thought that "Gone are the Days" by Nichole Nordeman fit pretty well, especially these parts:
Always at a distance, I wish you'd safely stayed.
Despite my resistance, you sought me anyway.
Gone are the days of All that I was afraid of .
I've left behind the traces of who i've been.
No longer able to wrestle with this angel,
And the closer you get, I can let you love me.
( The whole song )
Honda... lol, um, this was the best I could come up with. Otogi's right; it is hard to get a song for you. It's probably obvious why I picked "Another White Dash" by Butterfly Boucher.
And I watch another white dash,
another white dash,
another white dash
fly beside us.
And I watch another white dash,
another white dash,
another white dash,
fly beneath us,
away, away.
There is
Yelling of an engine, a constant rattling door.
There is serious deep and mumbled
a conversation I’m not it.
Flickering lights shadows of trees
makes me blink my eyes,
makes the land appear like a really old movie
and I watch...
Yes, I picture you on your motorcycle, and at the verse, you in that wonderful clunker of a car that's going to fall apart as I type this.
( The rest of the song's here. )
|
|
| ::Private:: |
[01 Aug 2004|03:17pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
confused |
] |
Last night, Honda, Yûgi and I went out to dinner after they did my house-keeping. The dinner itself was nice, I mean, it felt almost like old times. If Jounouchi would have been there, it might have felt right, I don't know... It's just that with so much going on, with so much chaos lately, we haven't gotten to spend too much time together, just all of us together. All of us with Yûgi.
Yûgi...
I... I don't know everything that went on before, and I don't think I ever will. All I know now is that he's afraid of telling us everything, feeling guilty when he wants something... And there's so many things I want to be able to tell him, to show him, to let him know...
To tell him that no one in the world deserves to be happy more than he does.
That he's my hero for always holding to what he believes.
That when he smiles, it feels like everything is right again.
To tell him that I will sit by him night and day listening to what he needs to say, and when he can't find the words, I will listen to him breathe.
To tell him that I love him...
I...I love him.
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8){kind=small}
faith_dancer's journal